"eating animals."

i'm going to go see jonathan safran foer speak on this book tomorrow!
stoked.

perfect from now on.

sitting with james at porchlight creating a list of what we will need in our new home.
built to spill is playing. usually it is jets to brazil.
it's going to be a pain in the behind to shop for house things during school.
still can't believe school is only three days away.
i forget pretty much every three seconds.

i'm hoping to get a book club started soon, and i've been brainstorming book ideas.
it's a bit hard, because book clubs require books that require thinking and discussion.
and i feel like lots of fiction (modern fiction) is more for personal interpretation.
but fiction aside, i'm thinking that "people's history of the united states" by howard zinn would be awesome.

2am.

oh, hey new tattoo!
he's missing an ear right now, but we were just hangin' out watching movies and getting distracted in the living room, so we will fix that when it's healed.
love it.
it's pouring rain right now, and i'm hiding in heath's bed, because he's not home and i'm really tired.
we got a bit of sunshine today. went to volunteer park. played music while a couple joined our tree party and showed off some dance moves. i kind of want to join their dancing class, hah.
i got six goddamned mosquito bites in a matter of 15 minutes standing out there! three on one foot, two on my back, and one on my leg. ridiculous.
we also watched "the beautiful truth," which reallyreally inspired me to make some healthy changes.
goodnight! goodmorning!

american bison.

i wanted to learn a little bit about the animal.
i'm getting it tattooed mainly for montana, but it's nice to know a bit more anyway.
here's a lil' list:

1. they are the largest land animals in north america.
   
2. males are larger than females, as holds true with most animals. but! both sexes have horns, which kind of rules. when it comes to birds, males are always so much more brightly colored than females. when it comes to most animals, females tend to get the short end of the stick.
   
3. they have beards. even the females. awesome.
4. they are generally kept in national parks and refuges for protection.
5. they are herbivores! considering the size of these animals, that really amazes me even though it makes sense considering their habitats.
   
6. females are ready to mate before males are. sounds familiar, heh. cute.
   
7. the general mating process is very similar to humans'. a male chooses a female, becomes very protective of her, they mate, and the female gives birth to one calf nine months later.
8. bison pretty much just hang out and eat all day in groups of about 20. each group includes a dominant male or female, and males and females generally separate from each other aside from mating season.
   

pictures of pictures from montana.
yesterday was lovely.
heath and ty got a new table with chairs, so we had a painting party.
haley and josh came over, we got some beers and watched superbad, heh.
haley and i are watching "the beautiful truth" today.
she tells me i will love it.
i think josh might be giving me my bison tattoo.

morning murmurs.

it's good to know that i can't stand dirty dishes and that i like to cook.
it settles my nerves about being completely on my own as soon as october 5th comes around,
and i am readay!
four people in one small place means a full sink every morning and lots of hungry bellies,
so when i wake up freakishly early, i do dishes and then cook breakfast.
i feel like i owe heath and ty so much, so it is the least that i can do.
the best part about being in the kitchen is overhearing their sleepy conversation.
everybody just catches on to everybody's bizarre statements.
most of it is just completely nonsensical, but when our minds aren't exactly up to par,
every word seems brilliant and hilarious.
i just like mornings a lot. everything that goes along with them. can't say it enough.

being around the boys has been so great for musical inspiration.
ty and james are always playing guitar, and they always want to hear me sing.
they are helping me build so much more confidence even though i still tend to shake into a million pieces every time i start singing in front of them, or anyone.
my ridiculously simplistic guitar-playing seems to be getting a little more dynamic, which is exciting.

sometimes i wish that i could remember exactly when i discovered that i had some kind of voice.
i have two memories of myself singing as a child.
one of them being hilarious and quite embarrassing.
my mom has worked at the post office since i was born,
and i used to go to work with her every once in awhile when i was 8 or 9 years old.
she would leave me at her desk in her roll-y chair. it spinned around too, and i loved it.
one day, i rolled the chair right underneath one of the lights on the ceiling and just started spinning myself around while staring upward, and then i began belting out "somewhere over the rainbow" for a really long time.
this was in the middle of the post office. one of her coworkers, werner, will never let me forget it.
the other memory is from a middle school field trip.
we just walked from school to stulsaft park with our music teacher,
and we sat around and sang patriotic songs and nature songs while she played guitar.
when it came down to singing "america, the beautiful,"
everybody stopped singing while i continued,
and i believe that was the first time i ever continued singing in front of a large group of people.
anyway, i just wish i could remember the starting point.

i'm sitting at vita again. a bug flew into my coffee this morning.
i turned in an application to peet's. it would rule if i got that job.
or any job.

i must say.

in my attempts to find a job, i had to update my resume.
while i hate doing so, i am quite impressed with it.