the actual graduation:

so, my two-hour middle college graduation was probably one of the happiest and most comforting days of my life.
luke, lex, bayley, katie, toby, haley, fra, and sean all showed up,
as well as my mom, sister, brother, 'god'mother, and pedro, of course.
i know others were there in spirit!
just thinking about it was nice enough, so i reallyreally thank everyone who congratulated me.
while the amount of people there ruled, it was a little overwhelming anyway ;)
but really, here i am with four bouquets of flowers, cards, balloons, and banners-
of course it's probably not the case, but i felt like i got the loudest cheers,
and i just felt extremely special and it was really nice.
my friends dominated me with love afterward, and it was so rad, and i plan to dominate them with just as much love before i go.
although i felt a little bit more spoiled than i deserved, my cheeks still hurt from smiling so big.
my speech went extremely well, and the whole ceremony was so casual and individualized that,
for the first time, i realized just how close-knit of a program middle college really was.
the teachers called us up, one by one, with something original, personal, and positive to say about each of us, and it made me tear up a bit when they called me up.
jen b. was the teacher assigned to 'presenting' me, and the two things she said that made me feel really good were that i am "truly wise beyond my years" and that she has been "more than lucky to have me as a student, and even more, as a friend."
it reallyreallyreally means a lot for her to call me a friend- i don't know,
i just feel like that's really...big?
audrey and melissa looked absolutely wonderful, and it's really cool that i graduated with them,
and can call them my friends.
i really can't describe how much i feel i would have been without if i didn't choose to go through middle college.
i looked at the ridiculous amount of pictures my brother took afterward,
and especially noticed, in the ones of me when i was giving my speech,
that you were the only person looking down, clearly having to try not to look at me, or anywhere around me.
i really just don't understand your whole situation, and i really finally think that she is disgustingly rude.
really, it makes me feel kind of sick.
tomorrow morning i'm turning in one essay, with three more short ones to go due on monday,
but research essays nevertheless.
tomorrow i also plan to go to the city and see brian! i miss him, and hopefully i can see fra again.

i can't even have a normal conversation at the moment, my mind is so consumed by way too many different things at once.