man, i'm hopeless.

i never fail to have at least one terrible bathroom experience each time i go to san francisco.

my official college orientation is next week, it's going to feel so real and close, time is going by so fast.

i talked to my dad for the first time in many years on the phone the other day, it was a good kind of bad, and that's about as deep as i'll go here, i am truly thinking/wanting to go to poland during one of my next breaks (winter or spring), and i will save just in case, i would want to go alone or with my sister.

i'm getting really tired of how many people i've noticed butting heads with me in competitions i'm not part of and will make sure to never be part of, it's awkward, unnecessary, and too many days have consisted of me not having any idea how to respond to anyone due to the fact that i'm too busy thinking "hmmm, did they really just say that?", and it's getting a little out of hand, relax is really all i've got.

i almost never listen to music anymore, it's been much too long since i've updated my collection, so i began working on that today and plan to get on it, very into folky things.

i guess it's nice that i don't have an addictive personality, at all, but i feel like it holds me back from a lot of things.

i was asked to play a show on a tuesday coming up, and i actually said no, the songs are all extremely personal, and although i'd love to share them live, it reeeeally gets to me when they don't come out the way they're supposed to, which they never do, and it sucks that i feel this way.

as soon as i get free time, i am going to make my tattoo appointment, i just don't know when that will be, blah.

i still have as hard of a time as ever believing people.

today i made myself a peanut butter, cucumber, onion, and spinach sammich on wheat bread, and before you go and be all judgemental, i really suggest you try it.

there is sososososo much i desire to do, but time, i hate yoooou time, i just need to be patient, i will do them, in time.