20 minutes alone.

i just re-read this blog for the first time since the last time i wrote.
i decided i want to continue it.
it will be exactly one year tomorrow since my last post,
and considering the amount of things that can happen in one day,
the things that have happened in one year are infinite.
i have record of it on another blog, but if you can recall, i was keeping it on the DL for awhile.
i needed to feel like i had some privacy, which was eventually destroyed, but what can ya' do?
this morning, i woke up to breakfast prepared by heath and ty.
i woke up to taylor and sierra and skunky and olive.
amelia and james too.
i came to seattle without anyone and now i have a family.
james and i applied for our new home today.
we will be living at heath and ty's until move-in, which is october 5.
i can't believe that i will have my own place.
i feel more and more like a big, bad grown-up every day.
i'm overwhelmed with excitement.
especially for visitors. i hope to have many visitors.
school starts in ten days, which i can't quite wrap my head around yet.
fall quarter is going to be fantastic though.

i had some girly one-on-one time with amelia yesterday.
age was involved in much of the conversation,
and i feel that it will be holding me back more than ever this year.
for awhile now, i've been and still am very ready for a serious relationship.
(as ready as one can be, that is).
this is new for me, which means that it is one of my stronger desires.
unfortunately, i don't see this happening for another couple of years because i can't help who i am attracted to.
they never seem to be younger than 23, and i hate understanding why that tends to be a problem.
but if i could be with who i wanted, nothing could really get better at this point in my life.
maybe health. but that's about it.

since august 28th, the day that seven of us left for montana, life has consisted of nonstop people and parties. i've been having the time of my life, but maaan do i cherish my 20 minutes alone.